Week 2! I'm finally starting to get the keyboard which is
nice! This week has been a roller coaster of emotions. It was better than last
week but still super hard. Every hour of every day is a roller coaster of
emotions. One second I'll be feeling pretty good about the mission and another I
get kinda homesick again. I've realized that when I think about the future that's
what kills me, but if I just focus on that day and what I need to accomplish
that specific day and that moment I feel better. It's still hard for me to
accept Africa and the fact i'll be here for 2 years but little by little I know
i'll come to love it. French is still really tough for me and I think this week
was the hardest yet language wise. Up to this point being in the MTC and also
just being on the mission for only a bit of time I felt like I had an excuse to
not be the best french speaker but now I just am anxious to be able to speak
and it's getting really boring in lessons when I just have no idea of what's
going on. I know I won't learn the language instantly, it takes time but I just
want to be able to speak and also feel like i'm making some progress. Sometimes
it's so boring I actually fall asleep and I swear every time right as I am
closing my eyes my companion looks at me to say something and so I just have to
spit something out. I end up bearing my testimony on something totally
unrelated to the stuff my companion was teaching about because I had been
falling asleep the whole time. As far as the hard things go I honestly really
believe it will get better but it's just hard to see a light at the end of the
tunnel right now. It just kinda feels like i'm a puppy dog being dragged around
on a leash. As for some good parts of this week... We got like 6 people to
accept baptism invitations which was exciting! I can extend the baptismal
invitation so my companion always lets me invite people and that's always fun
and rewarding. Of course no washing machine here so I got to try to wash
clothes in a bucket. If i'm being honest I've looked forward to have this
experience but its not fun. I'd much rather have a washing machine now haha. My
clothes like don't even get clean I put them on and hold my breath because
sometimes they just smell awful, then I walk outside and the horrible smell
from outside covers up my stink which makes it better. Kinda cool experience I
had this week was I had been praying to be able to feel angels helping me and
as we were walking one day I just felt my legs just going. It was so interesting
they were just moving so fast and stuff and I like didn't feel like I was even
trying to walk. Hard to explain but I know somebody was helping me it was super
cool. Today I went to Burger King for another Elders birthday. It has been so
weird because he invited us on Wednesday to go with him to celebrate an so
since Wednesday I have been looking forward to going to Burger King. How
ridiculous is that hahaha. It was so good though felt like I was at home for a
little bit.
Every day is still a battle. Hanging onto my faith and just
looking to God and Christ for help always. I know it'll get better I really do!
Elder Freedman
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